Profile: PostSecret
Michael Arrington
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Editors Note: PostSecret is not a for-profit company as far as I can tell. But it is beautiful and interesting and I feel like profiling it here because, as we say in our About section, we are profiling companies “that are making an impact (commercial and/or cultural) on the web 2.0 space”. Clearly, PostSecret is making a cultural impact on the web.
Website: PostSecret

Location: Germantown, Md.
Launched: January 1, 2005
What is it?
Postsecret is a weblog that asks people to submit 4-by-6-inch postcards that contain anonymous secrets. The postcards are scanned and placed on the website. PostSecret has thousands of daily visitors and a quick check of RSS reed subscriptions shows thousand of people get RSS feeds daily with new postcards.
In their own words, “Each secret can be a regret, hope, funny experience, unseen kindness, fantasy, belief, fear, betrayal, erotic desire, feeling, confession, or childhood humiliation. Reveal anything - as long as it is true and you have never shared it with anyone before.”
It is a beautiful site and a wonderful idea.
A few Comments left on PostSecret:
“When I read these, I don’t feel so alone.”
-Calgary
“I wish I could give all these people on the site a hug and tell them it’s ok to be human.”
-Washington DC
“Your site is truly inspirational, I’m left feeling full of compassion for my fellow human beings - We’re the same the world over.”
-England.
“I cryed when i saw your site. Its truly amazing that so many people have so many secrets like mine. I wish i could just tell most of these people it will be ok, cause i myself have never had anyone tell ME that…and it would help.”
-West Virgina
“So many of my secrets are there, without even sending a card.”
-Mexico
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Relevant Links:
NY Times on Postsecret
Technorati Tag: Postsecret
Delicious tag: postsecret
Flickr tag: postsecret
BoingBoing on Postsecret
Internet Archive
SophisticatedSecrets on PostSecret
Travels with Rhody on postsecret
Tom Keating on postsecret


I recently fell in love with PostSecrets. I find them very intersting and it made me start thinking of what I would post, it wasn’t hard thinking of one.
Anytime I am ever away from my boyfriend I fall back into depression, the depression that he got me out of that he has no idea about.
There is something incredibly haunting about PostSecret.
Sometimes I cry after encountering secrets that are particularly close to the being I hide during daylight. It turns out that a stranger with a homemade card can accomplish far more than the the one who is supposed to be “close”.
And I keep wondering if someone paused and dropped a tear after seeing my secret. Even if not. It turns out I don’t hate the world, if looking through the postsecret lense.
hi,
i personally think that postsecret was the most amazing thing ever made.
Everrone one needs someone to tell their secret to…
this site makes me feel for the first time in my life normal. it makes me feel alone no more
I Am absolutely obsessed with Post Secret. I read it every single sunday. I am just fourteen years old, but I have gotten my friends into it, and it gives us all hope, and strength. Sometimes I honestly believe Post Secret should be a requirement in schools.
tahnk you, for once, im no longer terrified.
I love post secret, every sunday I go on it and save all the postcards that I like or ones that mean something to me. I hope to get the post secret book soon I can’t wait
postsecret exposes every natural human tendency and emotion even those we hate to admit to.
post secret helps me understand my own emotions and thoughts…it helps me put things in persepective…
i’ve read it every week for the past year…occasionaly more than once a week…
i stopped me feeling like a freak and helped me feel accepted
x
I really enjoy reading post secrets. They are very interresting. It makes me happy to read other peoples secrets they share.
i like this site but im a bit afraid of it and some of the things that people say…
I’d like to personally thank the guy who made this. Several of my secrets are there too. It really made me realize that other people have my prroblems.
I have the book of all the postsecret’s and I enjoy reading it all the time. I would love to send in a secret but I fear that it will be put in the next book and everyone including myself will see it!!
I love post secret.
I read it every sunday;
No matter what.
I think its a great way to let people know that they’re not alone. And that everyone has problems.
We all have secrets. And sometimes it hurts less if we share it.
Post Secret is a way of letting people hurt less by sharing they’re secrets.
Thank you Post Secret.
I too am a Postsecret Admirer. Does anyone know how to get hold of the website creator?
I too am a Postsecret Admirer. Does anyone know how to get hold of the website creator?
i truly love reading post secret every week.. its something to look forward to. it is amazing how much better i feel after reading these its fun to read them but also each one impacts my life. thank you
Postsecret was a wonderful discovery for me. It touched me so much that I, myself, had to mail in a secret. I believe in the power of letting go of something you keep so tightly bound inside of you…and the best way to let go, is to do it for all the world to see.
Post secret is my new salvation. I read on a postcard today “His depression is killing me. I would rather be happy than loved. This provoked a lot of thought from me. I always assumed that being loved would make me happy. Maybe that isn’t so. It was really kind of an epiphany moment. Would his love make me happy? Does one equal the other? This one postcard could change my life…if not for post secret I would never have come to this realization on my own.
I am moved to know that I am not the only one with issues.
I stayed for 8.5 years with a man who used me, stole from me, degraded me and beat me, because I thought that some day I would deserve him.
Thank GOD for new found self esteem. I have a long way to go!
Post secret is great and is the inspiration for my new website - The Dollar Wish Blog - http://thedollarwishblog.blogspot.com
Check it out if you like post secret and send me your wishes.
I love postsecret.com.
I love reading everyones secrets and knowing that some one out there feels the same way that I’m feeling.
I just recently started reading Post Secret after hearing about the book. I can’t tell you how comforting it is knowing that I’m not alone in the way I feel. Yesterday I was feeling depressed; My boyfriend is about to move out of state. Reading the site helped me to feel happy. It also helped me to understand how lucky I am to be loved by, and to love, my wonderful boyfriend. There are so many people out there who are not as lucky. But don’t give up yet! Love is quite unexpected.
the post screte site is absolutly the most creative and helpful sit that is online if you ask me. I’ve checked the site more then a few times a week and even reading the book I can count endless secrets that are just like me. I tryed to even show my father some of them to try adn get him intrested so maybe he’d understand more of the things that go trhought my head it didn’t help much. But I will still continue to have hope. It’s always so wonderful hearing about the positive adn negative ways people have experiences life.
The only thing i hate, is that they took most of the postcards off. I used to sit and read them. and feel better about the feelings i was having. knowing people felt the same way…but their mainly gone now.
HAYY i just herd about post secret but for some reason the secrets are always the same ones when i read them do new ones eva get posted???
it amazes me that everyone has to feel as if they are perfect. all people need to realize is that no one does everything correctly, and that its okay to end up in bad situations. somehow, you’ll pull out. for every up; there is a down.
and yes. to the above question. new ones are posted every sunday. maybe you should try the refresh button on your computer. and it may work….:)
i still love him
Post Secret bothers me. Human weakness is so banal and despicable and I find it incredulous that so many people can be so whiny. Everyone’s secret is the same, the same boring vaguely philisophical issues. I believe that if people invested their time in reading, rather than writing atrociously boring secrets on postcards– some of them are creative, I’ll give them that– their would be fewer annoyingly depressed people.
To the comment above:
I find it incredulous that you spelled “there” incorrectly.
The site is not a celebration of weakness, but rather a way of sharing the struggles we have with ourselves with others. I think this makes both the reader and sender stronger in knowing that it’s okay to be imperfect, thereby embracing humanity itself.
This is to Dan-
No one asked you to read it. Superiority complexes are interesting to no one. Depression is a serious disease. If this site helps even one person, then it has served a greaterpurpose than your judgement ever will. Learn how to open your mind oh wait, that might mean that you actually have one
When I read this, I felt horrible about all of this. I sat there and thought that these people do have problems. It is a great book.
Dear Dan
Here’s my secret: You are an asshole.
i LOVE post secret
its my secret addiction =P
i look at it every sunday and i always end up wanting to read more!! its such a great site because it tells us that not a single person is perfect and all of us are human!!!!! 1-10 rating on this site i would give a 9.9 because there should be more postcards on every sunday =]
dan shut up just becos u think that your so perfect how could anything be wrong with anyone else ur probly in dinal about your life mayb u shold post a secrect ay??
i have just recently discovered postsecret, is there an archives? to read past postcards?
it’s amazing, it strikes you to the very core.
P.S.
to dan–some advice, if postsecret bothers you, don’t read it, noone says you have to
i like him but i love her, hope u know what i felt for u now
The site reaches out to everyone, it helps anyone who reads it (even sceptics, otherwise they wouldnt look) See that no one is alone in feeling the, happy, sinful, painful, lusting, loathing, sad, unforgiveable, unforgettable things they feel.
.I still love you, so so much. What happend to you?
i read the message you left me. i wish you still cared.
This is the only archive I have seen
http://community.livejournal.c.....tml#cutid1
I told him I’d gotten over my bulimia.
I lied.
It’s worse now than ever before, yet I still cant tell him the truth.
i tell my friends that really care about me that i dont smoke pot. i tell the people who could care less the truth.
he lied to me
he used me
he cheated on his gf with me
i love him
im a strait guy but ive alway wanted to know what it feels like to be a pregnant woman. have a huge belly waddling around, pregnant curves big boobs. then go throug the excruciating pain of giving birth. i have always wanted to know what it was like but i neer will. Unless the movie junior comes true and even then.
hi,
i love post secret, nad i only started reading it today!!! it really makes you realize that u r not alone. all my friends seem to have their perfect lives. not me.
here’s my secrets: i am 13. my father drinks every night. i see a counselor. i have never had a friend over and i think i am fat. i dont think i will ever get married or have sex with a guy i truely love. i long to be loved by a guy that cares about me. i have never been kissed and never had a boyfriend.
o yah to dan the whiner: u suck. u think u r perfect. well ur not. when i read post secret, it touched me deeply. u r obviously an ass.
the secret that touched me the most was the one that said “i have been suicidal for two years. i have wonderful dreams about death and pain. i am only 13 years old.”
i just wanna say to that person, you inspire me. i am sure you have touched many people’s hearts. please, please tell someone you love. u can get help and not have these horrible thoughts. u can inspire many more people. i feel very close to u and i love you, even though i do not know you.
I -really- like this totally awesome guy named Mark…but I don’t think that he’ll never know because I’m a guy too.
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click here to tell your secrets!!!
sometimes i used to read some of the secrets and think how horrible they were, until i saw one that was my own, and i was to afraid to send in…everyone has secrets and everyone needs to know theyre not alone
GOOD FOR YOU!!!!
This site really helps!!!
Have a good day!
i need to know, please….anyone reading this, how do i get in touch with the post secret website? when you click on “email postsecret” it doesn’t send them your email…it makes it so you are emailing the blogsite to a friend. i need to know how to get intouch with frank warren about a postcard this week of july 9 to july 16th. it’s very important to me. thank you
the only postsecret secret that’s hit home for me is one about blowing your nose int eh shower to save time and tissues…
does anyone know where i can find old post secret cards? is there a site with them all on?
Re: Dawn
I wish I knew! I have been trying to figure out the same thing.
x.X
im not a nazi..i love people of all shapes colors and sizes..my father kicked the shit out of me as a young boy..i kicked the shit out of everyone and everything in my life as a young boy..i was just doing what i was told..or what i thought i was told..i dont want to play anymore..when people hurt me i do stupid things..when are hurt people they get revenge..my life is an open book ive been used like a pawn..change is hard..my life is being held hostage..love is lasting and its all we have….im ashamed to know that i care about people that i’ve never met..even more ashamed that i hurt people who care about me..i wish these eyes would just give my life back..what a strange cool book..keep up the good work..long live a loving earth..i wish i was alive 2 see it..
postsecret has saved my life more times than i can count…
ever since a girl on a message board mentioned this site to me over a year ago, i go there everyday and read the post cards. new ones are posted every sunday but i still go back and read them over. some make me cry. some i save on my computer to go back and remind myself that im not alone. some make me just wish i was friends with these people. i love post secret and i recommend everyone to go there and read the secrets and purchase the book. you’ll love it, i promise.
I LOVE PostSecret. It has a lot to relate to me. You’re Not the only ones=]
I LOVE POST SECRET I WAS JUST ON THE INTERNET AND HAPPEN TO FIND IT EVER SINCE I HAVE BEEN HOOKED!!!! IT IS SOOO BEAUTIFUL THAT PEOPLE CAN SHARE THEIR SECRETS AND FEEL SO GOOD ABOUT THEMSELVES AND YOU IN TURN CAN HELP THEM JUST BY SENDING A LITTLE MESSAGE JUST TO SAY UR THEIR FOR THEM I THINK THIS WAS A FANTASTIC IDEA. AND I REALLY APPRECIATE THE FEEDBACK I HAVE BEEN GETTING OFF PEOPLE AFTER SENDING IN MY SECRET. THANK YOU ALL!!!!!
postsecret is a really good site but it saddens me when in read it
it makes me very aware that i have so many secrets i would love to tell everyone but i livein silence.
i guess thats theproblem with a secret, to be one it has to stay silent
i really do admire those that send them in tho i wish i could do the same
when i try to view post secret it says i am not autorized to view it. Why would this happen?
Merryn- I am having the same problem. I was there on Monday and it was fine, but now I can’t get on. Don’t know what the problem is- I hope they fix it soon.
How do you post comments on post secret? I mean the ones people put re the postcards because there are one’s I want to comment on that are close to me.
To Tom, I want to find out the same thing too.
I really want to reply to one, badly.
If you find out how, email me at moonwalk_avenue@yahoo.com and let me know.
i secretly wish that me and the guy i liked a long time ago still talk even thow our “relationship” ended horribly
when im watching movies and a person dies it doesnt fase me, but when im watching a movie and an animal dies i cry.
How do you post comments on post secret? I mean the ones people put re the postcards because there are one’s I want to comment on that are close to me.
when you left me i was already over you,it was only for our daughters sake that i stayed with you so long.
SENDING EMAILS TO POSTSECRET WEBSITE:
If you want to know how to email the postsecret website, as many people are wondering, I have not tried it, but I think the answer is at the bottom of the site’s page, where there is that picture of the girl named Cassie. She writes her email to Frank at docdel dot com.
Just click the little envelope icons found in several spots on the page (where you email the link to your friends). Instead of sending it to your friends, send the letter to Frank at docdel dot com.
I’m pretty sure thats the way, because if you scroll down on the email page, you see all the member responses that were published on postsecret.
Im so afraid ill be alone forever
If we break up, that gun’s to my head.
I also love this website. I really want to be able to leave a comment on some of the postcards but can’t see any links to an email address. Any ideas of what it is?
im afraid he’ll reconize the picture & understand my secret.
& not care.
I tried Passing_Through’s suggestion we’ll see if anything happens and I’ll let y’all know if it does. the e-mail that Cassie sent to is frank@docdel.com
i need to know… how do i post a comment on a particular postcard??
Its nice to have a peek at other peoples lives through post secret. it makes you feel more human. and realize that you are not alone in suffering loneliness caused by this imperfect world.
1. Click on the envelopes on page
2. address the email to frank@docdel.com
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August 21st, 2006 at 10:35 am
when im watching movies and a person dies it doesnt fase me, but when im watching a movie and an animal dies i cry. ]
ME TOO!!
http://photos1.blogger.com/blo.....rong.1.jpg if u didn’t do what u did that night i would have killed myself, thanx u really did save me, i’ll always remember u i miss u even tho i don’t know who u re
This made me feel better and I had been crying.
I like post secret.Mainly cause it helps people out with there secrets,that and it amuses me slightly.Some are just funny…:D
I love postsecret. I check the website out every week. I’ve never actually sent my secrets to postsecret but most of them have already been there. I’m going to share on of my secrets here, for the 1st time I’m going to share this with someone either than myself:
Those text messages he said he didn’t write, where really from him to me.
I miss him.
I hate that we don’t talk anymore.
I wonder if he’s happy.
I also wonder if he ever thinks of me.
I still love him.
I wish he would read this, and know it was about him, and maybe then we could atleast have a friendship again.
the only thing i fear is that my mom will find out about me and dad.. first he started out raping me then i started liking it and now it is mutual
i also fear that i will have his kid and it will be like my brother in a weird way
I desperately want to send something to PostSecret. I have so many things to say, but I’m afraid that there will be too many, and someone will eventually become annoyed by my letters. I’ll put them here instead, and everyone will see.
1. I’m more afraid of being an inconvenience than I am of actually doing something wrong.
2. There is a blank spot in my memory from the time I was 5 to the time I was 7, and I’m terrified that my dad did something to me that I’ve blocked out.
3. I have never let a friend stay over at my house because I’m scared that I’ll bore them.
4. When I was 13, I took a needle, heated it over a candle, and burned the first letter of his name into my ankle, then covered it up with more burns. I told people that I fell on a pile of nails. I just got a tattoo over it, and it doesn’t make me hate him any less, or love him any less, but it makes me feel that it’s finally over, and I can move on.
I still love him and it’s so hard seeing him with other girls. I wish I could turn back time so I wouldn’t say what I said again. I am sorry I hurt you it will always hurt me. But now what hurts me even more is me having to live thousands of miles away from you. I wonder if you ever think about me. I have many issues with food. I am sick of pretending to be happy when I am not. I am so mad at my mom if she wasn’t so depressive I would still be living in Florida. I had friends who cared about me and my life seemed perfect. But you ruined it now I am stuck in Puerto Rico unhappy. Why do I always got to pay for your mistakes I am sick of empty promises. They hurt me.
My sister and I used to play games when we were young.
I think I may have molested her.
We are both girls.
I dont know if she remembers.
I do. And it makes me sick.
im not anorexic but im naturally very skinny, but i wonder wat it would be like to just lose 10, then 20 pounds. i worry people wouldnt notice.
my secrets?
- I’m terrified that there’s no point to my existence, and that nobody would remember me when I’m gone.
- If I weren’t diabetic i would walk out the door right now and do something wreckless, like run, or drink, but I know I wouldn’t survive it.
- I hate being afraid of dissappointing you, and I wish I didn’t care so much.
- I want to be a completely different person.
- I can’t even stick to my own eating disorder.
All i ever wanted was someone to take care of.. to be needed.. and now that you’ve broken up with me a part of me prays and wishes for something bad to happen to you, so that you’ll need me to take care of you and so you’ll want me again…
Sometimes I read post secret and realize I’m a better person than a lot of people on this Earth. Some people who post on there make me sick.
Recently, the guy who put a poisonus spider in his sister’s bed when he was a kid and she lost part of her leg. How selfish is it that he didn’t tell her, but posted it on the internet. He deserves to lose all of his limbs for not telling his sister.
There’s the guy who gave kids a dirty look when they went on his lawn and they ran away, when really they were trying to get him to save a little girl’s life…and she died. That one almost made me cry, people like him hardly deserve to live.
I think when posts like those 2 come in, post secret should report them to the police, or I don’t know, something like that.
my secrets…
i say I won’t major in theatre because I don’t want to be a “starving actress,” but the really truth is I don’t want to people to think i’m dumb by association.
my husband took on a second job to support me while i go to school full time… i hate what i’m doing… i don’t do my work and slack off while he’s busting his ass for me. and i feel so guilty. i am such a bad person. it’s just because i absolutely HATE what i’m doing.
i have always thought i was fat. so fat that i would imagine this big book shelf in our garage falling on my thighs and cutting off my skin, so that they would be thinner. the thing is, i only weighed 130 and I was 5′8″.
sometimes i’m afraid my husband and i won’t make it. i think we’ll divorce in 10 years or less. i hate that feeling.
besides my husband, i only have one real friend. she wasn’t my maid of honor. but i will always love her and she’ll never know how happy she’s made the last three years of my life.
i wasn’t really sick when i was away at college. i don’t really think i was. i think i just used that as an excuse for being homesick and not really wanting to go to class.
i used to wish my mother would get into a car accident so that her back would finally break and she would die to keep her from hurting me. i don’t anymore.
my sister will never know how much she truly damaged me.
i will always love him. i think of him fondly. i wrote him an email the other day. he never wrote back. and i’m happy about that.
i didn’t want to get married so early. not because i wanted to prepare, but because i was afraid of not having any friends to invite.
ok. thanks.
Lauren, you’re completely missing the point. Its absurd that you compare yourself to people who are willing to put their deepest secrets on the line. I wish I were brave enough to do that and I’m sure that you aren’t. Also, they should not report these to the police because not only are they anonymous, but also the webmasters at postsecret have an obligation to protect privacy. I think you’re fogetting that the two people who you mentioned had no idea about the consequences of their actions. I honor them because they can admit the guilty feelings they have and it represents their attempt at some kind of repentence. You appear so small minded and don’t consider people’s feelings at all and you should be ashamed.
I get that they didn’t understand the consequence of their actions, but not owning up to it and instead posting it online is just cowardly. NOT brave as you have suggested. Oh give me a break anyone can post an anonymus secret online, no one would know it’s them anyway. I’m not small minded at all and I do consider people’s feelings…I consider the VICTIM’S feelings, as anyone else should. Do you sypmpathize with the victim or the murderer? The victim or the rapist? I can’t bring myself to feel sorry for or even respect someone who will permanently damage his sister’s leg and never have the balls to tell her. Since when was dishonesty rewarded?
perhaps what happened when they were younger has worked out, maybe not the way they planned, but in the end, everyone adjusted. why, 10, 20, 30 years later, when the secret poster realized they had done something wrong, bring it up? maybe the victim had come to terms with what happened, or maybe the family finally put the bad stuff behind them. why bring up something that will just hurt everyone? if the mom of the child who died finally came to terms with her child’s death, wouldn’t it kill her more if 20 yeras later she finds out her remaining son is the one who caused the daughter’s death?
He told me that he proposed to me out of convenience.
The next one let me fall in love to tell me 12 hours after we last had sex that he was in love with someone else.
I am bulimic.
I started smoking again.
I am a Company Commander in the U.S. Army, in charge of 250 Soldiers.
I can’t even control myself.
I feel guilty for feeling bad/sad/angry when there are people scared/ lost/ dying in Iraq.
I want to go to Iraq so I can feel scared/lost/death. It has to be better than where I am now.
I come from a small country in africa, i have always had what i needed but sometimes i think i was given the raw end of the deal. i dream all the time that i wasn’t such a liar, or that i married a rich man and that i would actually mean it when i say ‘i love you’.
TO LAUREN
i understand where you are coming from but you’re still wrong, you’ve been priviledged enough to lead a life with no real reget thats why you don’t understand, if you had you would know that putting those secrets up on the net was the bravest thing those two did, because it involved them owning up to themselves…… catch a clue before you judge next time babes
some things id like to share:-
i want to pass out in the middle of the road just to see if anyone would actually do anything.
i love you as a friend but hate you as a fellow human.
i feel everyone loves my sister more than me and constantly negatively compare myself to her.
i wish i had some more friends to talk to.
To Jane . . .
men are assholes,
put down tht fag and pick up some gum,
and try to sort out your bulimia- do it little step by little step. try and make yourself so busy you dont think about it and stop right now and write down 5 things that you love about yourself.
Be strong just like your soldiers.
x x x
I agree with Lauren.
It’s cowardice. Simply writing it out and pretending you told but never actually doing anything. How about you waste that time giving that postcard to the person you’ve hurt instead?
Oh Kara…… we get judged every single day of our lives whether we like it or not, can you and Lauren please gives us jus this tiny little website to vent…judgement-free. PLEASE!!!!
As a child I did and had done to be several things which I would never tell anyone…even on a site or a postcard. I haven’t got the bravery to send in a postcard for the world to see. It does take bravery - these people are admitting to things which in that one mans case has haunted him for 12 years…by even saying it aloud he is showing that he does care, that he does feel guilty. Put yourself in his shoes for a minute - I dare you. Can you honestly say that you’d tell your sister that you were the cause of all her pain and suffering. If you are being truly honest I doubt you would. Judging doesn’t help, he’s killing himself with his own guilt - do you truly need to start judging on top of that. There was no intention of harm. What he did was wrong yes. But for a kid understandable. As a kid you run away from trouble, fron danger - it is instinctive and by the time you’re old enough to truly understand the pain you caused, saying anything would cause more pain.
I also think that in sending in such an implicit postcard he is implicating himself - if his sister read that there cannot be many in that situation. Takes more bravery than some would like to admit. But yeah, if you put yourself into other peoples shoes then maybe you can understand the motivation before judging.
My friends say im a great person.
I know im not.
I know i am the cause for there problems.
And i know im getting what i deserve.
But i’m going to countinue to pretend, i did nothing wrong
sharee:
I did so much wrong,
I cant move on
I’m losing my best friend, shes going out tomrrow, to get high with a bunch of dicks.
Once shes gone im ALONE. the scarest thought in lifee
he lied to me
he used me
he cheated on his gf with me
i love him
i tell my friends that really care about me that i dont smoke pot. i tell the people who could care less the truth.
thank you whoever posted these [sort of a long time ago]
they really sum up my life and it makes me feel better knowing that im not the only one with these types of problems.
I wish you were dead.
and im not just saying it out of rage.
i am so alone.
i was told today that someone hated me. hated me. and the thing is, i don’t think that person’s the only one.
i don’t think i’ve done anything, though, to deserve hate. i try to be a good person, i always try to be the best friend a person could have. and what do i get from that? hate. ambivalence. apathy.
i just wish people would look at me again and see the bright spark…. the scary thing is… i can’t even see that spark in myself anymore.
Jai, thank you for writing that.
I feel the same way.
Some person is trying to ruin my life because she “hates me”.
The defference is i did do things to this person, Im the only one she hates.
I used to be the happy, trust worthy, Great friend.
Now im an idiot. I want to go back to that.
But i think its to late.
I will one day understand why I lie to so many people as well as myself. If I hadn’t of said anything would I have died or would I have tried again and succeded? I hope she’s the one. I can’t wait any longer without having someone loving me.
i always complain about how i have nothing to do.
Today i got offered so much to do, i couldn’t do anything, and i ended up sitting at home laying in bed crying.
Last night I sprayed my arms with oven cleaner, to burn out all the dirt inside of me.
It didn’t.
It burn off my skin.
And I really regret it.
My boyfriend is a virgin and hates having his penis touched
and although he doesn’t say it…
I know it’s because I’m not a virgin
and he think I’m used and dirty.
You still go on even to this day 8 years later letting me beleive i left you there to be raped.
It scares you that i know the truth doesn’t it.
I spoke to his witness before the trial…. on the plane.
How fucking stupid…. they put him in the aisle in front of me- how is that reasonable in this day and age.
I am the reason he withdrew…
I will never forgive you for what you did and i will never forgive you for blaming me… NEVER. As for your parents i hope one day they fucking find out how you manipulated us all.
And still i call you my best friend… deep down i desise you as a human being
quoting lauren: “Oh give me a break anyone can post an anonymus secret online, no one would know it’s them anyway”
WRONG.
You couldnt BE more wrong. When you connect to the internet, you are assigned an IP address. When you fill out a forum, or a blog, or write an email, your IP address is logged.
The webmaster can choose to make your IP address visible to others, or, he or she can keep them all to his or herself.
YOU ARE NOT ANONYMOUS BY ANY MEANS when communicating electronically.
And on another note, how do you consider yourself a “better person” than a stranger you’ve never met?
Then there’s this quote from you: “There’s the guy who gave kids a dirty look when they went on his lawn and they ran away, when really they were trying to get him to save a little girl’s life…and she died. That one almost made me cry, people like him hardly deserve to live.”
Really? Hardly deserves to live? because he couldnt read minds and know telekinetically that that was what he needed to do? I havent read that secret, but how many people shoo away kids and animals from thier property? Do you know for a fact he wasnt riddled with guilt after?
And, what part of Africa are you currently stationed in? I imagine with morals as you have, comparing yourself to those people, and furthermore calling yourself “better than most people”….that you MUST be saving starving children? Are you? In Africa? In the Phillipines?
Or are you just choosing to pass hypocritical judgement on others?
And, lastly, do you have to as judgemental as you are, to define yourself as “better than most people on the planet”, as you have called yourself?
i read postsecret everytime i get a chance.
it makes me feel so much better knowing
that im not the only one with secrets like mine.
i can relate to so many of the secrets it scares me,
i wish i had enough courage to send a secret.
Postsecret makes the world go round. It is a weekly topic of conversation for me and my compadres. Each week is a surprise I\you never know what secrets will be posted. I check every Sunday.
dear ny, i dont know how long ago you posted you’r secret about wanting to know how a pregnant woman feels… but i want you to know that it made me cry.
i cried for alot of things.
for happiness because the fact that someone so open minded wants to know what a joy that is…
and for the beauty of the fact above.
and the pain, because of recent events.
just recently i thought it was pregnant.
the father of the child punched me in the stomach and told me to sleep with other men, as if to a)kill the baby or b)pass it off onto someone else.
sometimes i would find myself thinking that a baby would make my life complete, and then i would feel like i had a real reason to live.. i still think so.
but two days ago i started my period.
the blood was extra red, and im pretty sure that i was pregnant, but then miscarriaged.
i didnt need the biological father to be by my side (as much as i want him to.)
but i need that baby.
i cant wait for the day i get pregnant.
and im only sixteen.
Karebear excuse my ignorance but seriously …
you WANT to be with the biological father?
Wake up wake up wake up…. And before anyone says i am judging someone else… i am not- i am speaking from experience.
You are 16… how can you say a baby would make your life complete.
i think i explained myself well enough.
under my circumstances…
a baby would do nothing more than give me a life.
a life worth living.
a life i would be glad to live.
HOLD IT THERE KAREBEAR.
your 16.
What about education.
Money.
And I take it the birthfather, dose not want to have any responsiblity with this.
And even if he did Not alot of realationships last that start in teen years.
I think its almost immuature to say that.
Karebear you need to speak with a few professionals….
If you really did have a miscarraige- (it is not something that you can mistake for a period…trust me on that) go to the hospital and get checked out- get some names/ numbers of people to help you and bear in mind that young parents are more likely to live a wonderful life of poverty and disadvantage. I teach people like yourself on a daily basis, some 5-10 years later how to get eso that they can be educated enough to get off welfare and provide better lives for their families. Is this what you want for yourself or your child??
YOU ARE 16…. Please take advice people are giving you…the harsh reality is you have yet to experience your OWN life yet.
Sorry just my 2 bobs worth again
i regret that kiss SO much, and im sad because its ruined our friendship. how can i be your friend when i cant even look you in the eye?
ever since, ive become so self concious and convinced im ugly, i know it was you that changed me. . .
i knew our relationship wouldnt last.
i actually think ive had two miscarraiges…
i know a baby would complicate my life, and his or her life that would have come… but i also know that we could have been happy.
i already planned my entire life out.
my mom teaches girls who get pregnant at the age of 12 to 18 every day, so i know she would understand.
i come from a good family, and a good background…
and i know that i could pull off a very loving good upbringing for my kid if i had one at an early age.
now that the “almost father” is out of my life…
i really dont think im going to be sleeping with anyone… any time soon.
so for all of you out there who are taking my problems to heart, and thinking of me as a naive teenager.. please stop.
ive gone through more than most likely all of you combined..
which might explain the way your replying to me.
so, unless youre going to look at me with an open mind…
and tell me things that i dont have to defend myself to..
please dont say anything at all.
you can tell me its not a good idea.
but you cant tell me im wrong.
(because opinions do differ, my dears)
and last but not least..
im pretty sure that making a life…
would help me live mine even more.
oh..kalm..
you told me to take the advice others give me?
what advice?
other than yours…
nobody has said anyting that helps me in any way.
all i have received is dissagreeance and ignorance.
if you want to help…
be supportive.
im having trouble right now…
because i honestly thought that people were understanding…
or they would try to be.
now my problem is i cant see how all of you read me like an open book…
when all you have really done is glanced at the writing on the spine.
vanessa…
why would he kiss you if he didnt find you beautiful?
karebear…
im 17.
one of my best friends is 16
shes had a couple of miscarages,
and a couple of abortions.
when i think of how many lives that were lost i tear up.
if you want a baby, then great! it is natural for women to want children, and is part of our genetic make up. as you said we should give our opinion so here is mine it is neither right nor wrong and you do not have to take it into consideration. you say that a baby will complete you life. but dear, you can not bring a new soul into the world until you are content with your life. you will end up passing that way of thinking on to your child, that they need another person to complete their life, when in truth you are strong enough to complete you’re own life. my advice is that you should think of the affects. that most young mothers are usually single, and are usually on wellfare and poor. but you know, everyone has a differnet plan for life. and if you want a baby and feel that you are mature enough in both you body and your mind to raise one, then hey that’s your decision and your life.
the only words i hope to keep with you are:
don’t be afraid to be weak, and dont be to proud to be strong.
thank you.
i am afraid to be weak..
and im trying to be strong?
im not sure about anything.
but what you say does make sense.
and it hits home.
Im falling apart.
Nothing is derasticly wrong with my life.
I just can’t deal.
They all think i can take anything thats thrown at me, becaouse i dont complain or stick up for myself.
But every hit leaves an invisible bruise. But Just becaouse its invisible dosn’t mean it dosn;t hurt.
I want to find complete happyness. i’m losing faith.
I get it undercontroll, and they through something else at me.
I need tragidy.
It might smartin me up a little bit.
And ill start worrying about what really matters.
Karebear.
Experience has nothing to do with being an adult.
Do you know why the adult women are replying to you?
Because EVERY ADULT remembers being 16.
Knowing the answers to everything.
Being invincible.
Being more intuitive than anyone else around them.
They are talking to you because you are behaving exactly the way a teenager is supposed to behave.
You have shown nothing out of the ordinary that shows you have the equ